Dear Baby Stafford, In previous letters, I’ve told you about the grief your dad and I experienced throughout our journey to parenthood. You know about the tears, heartache, and despair. But in the spring of 2017, my trauma began to manifest in a different way. One Saturday, about two weeks after our second miscarriage, I… Continue reading Rage
Dear Baby Stafford, Nearly eight months ago I sat down to write you a letter. I believed, at the time, our infertility journey would soon be coming to an end. That the light was appearing at the end of the tunnel. And yet, as I write to you this evening, I find myself another year… Continue reading Parting Ways
Dear Baby Stafford, Sitting in the exam room with Dr. M and Nurse R on that horrible February day, I knew that I was done. Something deep within me was broken, and I could no longer put on a brave face and continue down the same path. “I think it’s time for a second opinion,”… Continue reading A New Diagnosis
Dear Baby Stafford, This letter is not easy for me to write, nor will it be easy for you to read. You already know how Cuatro and Quint’s stories end. You know about your siblings in Heaven, and how many losses your dad and I endured before bringing you into the world. What makes this… Continue reading The Very Worst Day
Dear Baby Stafford, Cuatro and Quint were transferred into my body on February 3rd, and I was immediately confident it was successful. As I previously mentioned, your dad and I were feeling better physically, emotionally, and mentally than we had in several months. Our hopes, and spirits, were high. Additionally, I reasoned, the odds were strongly… Continue reading Pregnant. Again.
Dear Baby Stafford, As you already know, your dad and I took a four month hiatus from IVF at the end of 2016 to allow my body, and our hearts, to heal. By January 2017, however, we felt as though we were ready to give it another shot. We notified Dr. M’s office and scheduled… Continue reading Cuatro & Quint
Dear Baby Stafford, Following our third embryo transfer, Dr. M recommended we take some time off before transferring again. She explained my body, and mind, needed time to recover from all I had been through in the previous six months. She suggested I consider acupuncture treatments to help prepare for our next transfer. As you… Continue reading Acupuncture & Going Public